I need.

   Just when i think that i could finally manage doing this the right way,Something gets in my way,why does it always have to be me to fix stuff? why am i the one who should Always do the right thing? If you don't like me just walk away,I'm not changing for the sake of your feelings,you've met me that way, I accepted you for who you are for 10 years, and didn't like everything about you either,i just found a way to live with it, and then suddenly this happens...
I became the worst friend ever for not sharing my feelings out loud with everyone,and i'm a bitch for doing it for my other best friend who is  thousands of miles away from me,and could barely reach for a very short conversation that includes nothing of what we have..
I feel lonely,I need someone to trust with my feelings, someone i could rely on for whatever i feel, someone who wouldn't compare themselves with anyone, someone who would know how i feel towards them without saying anything...
I really need that.
I used to be strong,but now I'm Vulnerable.. I need someone who's strong enough to give me strength..
I'm just tired.