Resistance.

   It's funny.. realizing that your current life is based on resisting a change, that change that leads to reality.
you know better,you do,
But you can't handle it, I guess i could handle pain more than giving it all up to change,
I'm afraid If i let go,I'll never have it back, Even though I almost don't recognize it anymore,resisting means you still have hope,but do i?
What hurts the most,i never thought I'd be fighting for this,how ironic...
I never thought It'll even last...
and now my life is all about it.
sad