The cause of a scar.

  Back when i had a one piece of a heart,back when everything was right,back when my worst problems was not getting what i want..
Back then,I didn't know that life might get this rough,I hate the fact that i get too dramatic,It's just This is the way i express how i feel,even though i try to ignore it as much as i could,'cause i know that by revealing it I'm gonna get slapped by my own dark thoughts,I know.. i know..
Everyone have problems,and some might have real problems,but so what,I don't want to underestimate my feelings just 'cause it Ain't serious as it should be,And i thank god everyday for waking up,for being healthy,for having a family,and for everything.
I'm blessed i know, but It's just that hole, that empty hole,'caused by all the disappointments,all the pain, all the worries..
Am i good enough? Is this my place?
Are you gonna stick with me forever?
Should i trust you?
were you worth trusting?
why?
how could you?
Who am i?
What do i want?
Is this what i want?
Why can't i get things straight?
Why am i a mess?
Why do i have to think so much?
...!
a heart is a very strong muscle,but It's the size of your fist.. Look at it,It's not big enough...
not for that kind of pressure,It must be torn ...
Even though its just a metaphor for feelings,but we do struggle to breath at some point,which makes it real.
After all, wounds heal leaving a scar behind after bleeding dark thoughts, maybe Its a reminder, a reminder that stings every time you get so close to that knife that cut you before..
we forgive,and we all ask for forgiveness,
but do we forget? no.
thats the cause of a scar,you weren't supposed to leave me a scar,and now there's just too many..
It just stings.